The Life Reset by Geese

The Year 2016 hasn’t gone exactly the way I planned. Ever since January 2016; it has been a downward spiral; my hoist of health issues (blood disorders) has dominated the year. I missed my first World Series of Poker in 13 Years; havn’t been to Vegas since January; havn’t played a hand of poker since January & I’ve actually spent more time this year in Hospitals than I have in casinos & in public combined. You’re probably thinking “Impossible; There’s No Way”.

It took me throwing my cell phone (one tough cell phone & it still works just like me) multiple times 


to crack my speakers & a few 4 hour walks to finally find my proverbial “Life Reset Button”. You’re probably wondering why did I throw my cell phone multiple times? I threw it because I’ve been battling my Health Insurance over medical payments as I’ve reached a point in the year where the remaining hospitalization cost for the year is theirs to pay; so obviously they’re delaying on future decisions & I require lots of ongoing treatments for the remainder of this year & the future.

So, in the midst of one of my 4 hour walks in the sweltering heat; I encountered a flock of Geese on multiple occasions & each time the same speckled Geese with 4-distinct spots on the left looked at me & I stopped. Normally, I don’t stop. I stopped, just sat on the grass, took in the surroundings & took a swig from my water bottle (have to Thank a friend for that; I normally don’t take a water bottle; I do now). The realization hit of my chase for the “Life Reset Button” begins with me to quit chasing after my old self & start with my current "new" self.

I’ve been told numerous times recently that I have to do what’s best for me; it’s so good to see you back; you look great; you’ve lost a LOT of weight (The weight comment-I’ve heard most-no credit-it’s all meds); On the flip side; I’ve been asked alot “How do you feel?; Are you glad to be back?; How long are you back? & Do you plan on staying in Colorado? Is it Worth it? At this point; I’m not sure, but I’ve made some personal “leaps of faith” hoping that it works out for me to stay. I’m not one to give up for those that know me. I’m on a pretty aggressive medical regimen; so it will either completely work or completely not & it won’t be for lack of effort.

I write on a daily basis & throw it away but this one's a keeper. If I can help just 1 person it’s totally worth it. Truth is, I battle my body on a daily moment by moment basis. Lately; I do good just crawling to the couch. I am a literal walking mash unit & I’ve finally come to the point to learn & realize that. “We all at some point have our limitations; it’s the ability to bring out the best from our realized limitations that’s where you can shine.”

Each morning that I wake up, I’m reminded of this quote:

“Be Thankful for all the struggles you go through. They make you stronger, wiser & humble. Don’t let it break you, let it make you.”

Until Next Time;

C